It’s so ironic how I’m holding the stuffed animal he gave me to feel better.
Cause its actually working….
Ughhhhhhhhhhhhh I looked forward to my phone call with my bf like usual but it turned sour. Basically I felt like he’s never on my side when I complain about things, like its always my fault. And I got really really mad even though I tried so hard not to be but I just felt worse and idkkk when I get mad or frustrated, I can’t think right. It’s as if I just want to hear what I wanna hear and say what I wanna say even when its wrong. Then I cool down and think straight again and acknowledge my wrongs. But I can’t ever have that cool down since he wants me to think straight alllll the time and I just can’t do that.. I try to but like I said before jit ust makes me even madder. I had to scream in my pillow to feel better so I could sleep. I was so tired before now I’m wide awake. I’m not over it yet arghhhh I just want this feeling to go away so I can just feel happy and content again. Jeez, why do I keep feeling like he doesnt accept me at all…., i accept him and his flaws i dont go on and about telling him how bad his problems are.. His problems are pretty bad too whatever ugh getting mad again I don’t like this
I wanna sleep!!!!!!!!
I hope I’m not mad in the morning. Omg the idea of getting mad at hike makes me madder because he’ll probably get mad at me for being mad at him. It’s not fair not fair not fair I never get to be mad ever
I have abandonment issues D:
Just kidding lol but I do have issues with people giving me mixed signals like am I a close friend to you or an acquaintance. Can you please just tell me????
I’m probably the best weight loss buddy ever. Worst weight loss person on my own though
Two week challenge to a smoking hot bod for prom lets go!
Awww my boyfriend talks to this kid he tutors the same cute way he talks to me :( :( :( at first I was like “ohh!” But I’m thinking about it now and I’m like “nooo I’m special…! back off little girl” lol I feel so silly.
I’m not jealous at alllllll I mean how petty do I have to be y’know
I decided I should set myself some dreams or goals if I wanna get anywhere.
Most importantly there’s no such thing as Highschool in this life
Idk I guess I start to hate two kinds of people. One that doesn’t give you any space and suffocates you to the extremes (like I cant keep up with your friendship dude) and one that only comes to you when its convenient (I’m not your grandmother, you’re not forced to visit me for a few minutes and leave). Oh maybe the third is when one replaces you/finds new people to be friends with (thanks for the memo dude)
I’ll get over it I’m just being all bitter and stuff right now… It’s this studying that gets me like this.
I thought talking about it with someone I really cared about would make me feel better but I feel even worse…….. I feel like I’m going to lose everyone I care about because of who I am.
In other news, congratulations I finished the final copy of my magazine.
I’m falling into a really dark hole right now
Why does this keep happening to me.
And this is so stupid but I can’t believe this is sort of happening to me again. I don’t wanna tell anyone though cause I’m tired of telling someone about how I feel. I think I’m shutting people out right now honestly.
What do I even want… and how am I gonna survive one more month because I feel like I’m at my breaking point already. I don’t wanna go to school at all anymore…..
I just feel like I’m so boring these days. Honestly there’s nothing to me and I think